I spent so many years so very lost trying to make myself fit in this world. Trying to be everything but myself. I could make people like me. I could make people hate me. I could have friends and then turn and run from them. That is not the way to live. I understand that now.
I am a bit sad for the loss of the years that it took me to understand this. Why I couldn't find myself good enough to want. It is hard to want yourself when there is so many people I could see that looked a lot better then just plain ol me! Yet I guess I am pretty damn great. I never know that once I stopped running from myself how happy I could be!
There is much joy in my heart and a fun side to me still. I just I don't know how to explain it other then I thank god for finding it. I used to think that one day I was going to wake up my life over and no one ever know me. That I could drift in this life till It was over. Well its not and I am no longer drifting lost.
This will however be the last blog on here. No fear though I have started a new one! It is great and I am very happy with it. I shed no tears and feel no sadness letting this one go. It helped me find my way and I needed that!
To my readers of this I love you all and thank you for following and being there as I discovered myself. I hope to see you at my new blog! http://frysfriedthought.blogspot.com/ There is the link. Please subscribe and follow with me. I have made it 2 months without missing a daily blog. So Proud Of ME! :D lol ... Wow I all most sound confident huh *winks*
